Its been some time since I last blogged...
The reason behind my sudden disappearance from the blogosphere is not something I'm even remotely aware of...
I tried pondering over this for a while...I wasn't exactly what you'd call "busy"...my comp didn't crash...there was no technical snag...I wasn't gone visiting relatives in Uganda,nothing such what-so-ever!
So,there! lets just say I didn't have much to say,shall we??{although that's a doubtful claim...(i always have something to say!)}
I thought of a ceremonial comeback(batting eyelids...waving hand in midair...blowing kisses...'oh thank you...thank you...I missed you too!')but I guess that would have been a bit over the top...don't you think?
will I ever quit being melodramatic???


sigh!

I am a senior...finally!!


YAAY!!

"ekta nirobota theke
onyo ek nirobotay
shore jachhi ami..."

I'm a loner...well,mostly.I like being left alone to do 'my thing'..now whatever that might be...muse,gaze listlessly at absolutely nothing whatsoever,pucker my lips,make strange,strange sounds ,signal the birds,make paper boats,fiddle with the phone,squint my eyes,whatever...

and I hate crying in public...its one of my major paranoias...I become all conscious when I get crying before someone,and I totally hate people comforting me.Cracking jokes(stupid imbecile ones, at that)is so not the best thing to do when someone's depressed.The situation merely worsens.Why don't people get that??I like people who give me enough space to let me do my thing and enquire if everythings alright after the bawling gets over.

and for some strange reason I can't stop thinking about things I'd rather not think about.and there's this voice inside me which has been silently screaming'lebu cha...lebu cha..lebu cha...'for an hour now.it was 'prottutponnomotitto' the other day.

ufff!!!

tu bin bataye
mujhe le chal kahin
jahaan tu muskuraye
meri manzil vaahin
tu bin bataye
mujhe le chal kahin
jahan tu muskuraye
meri manzil vaahin
meethi lagi,chakh ke dekhi abhi
mishri ki dali,zindagi ho chali
jahan hain teri baahein
mera saahil vahin
tuu bin bataye
mujhe le chal kahin
jahan tu muskuraye
meri manzil vahin
mann ki galli tu phuharoon si aa
bheeg jaaye mere khawobon ka kafila
jise tu gungunaye
meri dhun hai vahi
tu bin bataye
mujhe le chal kahin
jahan tu muskuraye
meri manzil vahin..."