Wednesday, February 20, 2008

ennui

uneventfulness is a disgusting thing to deal with.i hate whiling away time doing absolutely nothing substantial and then later blaming myself for the same.and its incredible how exhaustive and elastic this 'nothingness' is.i feel spent and content everyday as i walk back home,having done nothing really to be so filled and exuberant about.i fear being a vegetable.inert.nonchalant.immuned against changing.i fear i would start living a life where today would be no better or worse than tomorrow.it would eclipse with tomorrow and the day before.its a terrible feeling,this!like a film stuck at a point and reiterating previous shots over and over again conjuring abundant monotony.
i need an exorcist to shoo bad thoughts off my mind.too many things on my mind these days.plenty to read,watch and visit.lots of things left undone.too many errands to run.stuff to purchase.plans to make.calculate.make note of.and too little time.
procrastination is probably not a trait you would like to rejoice over.but then,you are not left with much choice when it compulsively thrusts itself at you.submission then becomes the only way out.

17 comments:

Aphrodite said...

OOOOOOHHHHH MY GOD...... u spoke my mind...i have a millions to dos but have been procrastinating for ever...nice post btw.... ;)

Aphrodite said...

BTW oi boi melar post tate chobi ta ki aabol taaboler??

coffee stain said...

awe.... you know what the best thing to do when you feel this way.... bask in the sun with a cup of hot joe... and ponder..... just ponder

Bone said...

make a plan to run away and travel, you have a bitof money? aami jabo shonge =)

dreamy said...

almost everybody,at some point of time comes across this "nothingness" that you're talking about.But I am sure ..not many can write down their thoughts the way that you do :)

~Moo-lah Buz!nezzz~ said...

Its called the stagnant state.
Its a void,where somehow everything seems endless....
So chill,we have all gone through that phase!!
Have you ever felt the need to just open ur door and jump over a cliff into the river below.If yes,you are normal.
If u feel suicidal,then its a problem.

Anonymous said...

well, you always had that one lil problem didn't ya...the nothingness...
and maybe the zoo has its contributions in this too!!!

Pongy Papaya said...

procrastinate korao ekta 'shilpo' bujhle nah?
nice post:)

p.s. aamar blog e comment ta besh interesting.i'll tell kaku one of these days,dats if i meet him tho.

onnesha said...

@aphro-i know im not the only one but that doesnt make the nagging any better:(
@coffee stain-but tahts what i DO all day.right now,i wana come out of this vicious warp and for once DO things i had conmtemplated all these years.
@mandy-jabi?chol!
@dreamy-ditto to aphrodite.
@moolah-i have randomdreams where i am found falling from stuepndous heights.does that count?
@inihos-yes!the joo and its all engulfing lyadh.hrrmmphh.
@pongy-its a shilpo alright.but in my case it enjoys a complete monopoly.everything has been bloody kicked to the sidelines.etto procrastinate korle kissu hobena ar!

Pongy Papaya said...

shei aarki.tokhon ''only if..'' bole regret kore matha khurte hobe.blah!blah! wateva! tao uneventfulness k salaam:)
aamio toke add korchi.

Anonymous said...

but uneventfulness is good somtimes...

little boxes said...

nice re...sometimes life gives you so many things at the same time,that you crave for some uneventfulness
*sigh*

undifferentiated said...

i want to erase my mind at times, the way it kps blabbin n blabbin n dsnt stop n i cnt do nethn to stp it n all the thngs it worries abt rnt really in positn to b solvd by me...hts whn i want to shoot my brains out.hmph.

onnesha said...

@inihos-sometimes is okay with me.but THIS is fast becoming a routine!
@lil boxes-double sigh!!
@ady-ekdom hhhrrrmmmphh!

loony girl said...

dun b so hard on yourself...think of all poor souls stuck at home with broken feet and torn ligaments!!

kyamaloom said...

No 'gyaan' from my side.

I'd just say- You write good! :)

onnesha said...

@sreejita-aww!i know.sohini told me.u take care of urself.and get well soon.
@rohit-thankoo:)