when i first started my blog i intended to make it somekind of an insight to the life and times of the individual i am...
there were these stupid myths about me being the jester who cracks jokes 24*7
i guess the myth is broken...rather shattered...by now!and i must say i am more than happy.relieved,so to speak...imagine being deemed something that is not even half as much your identity...not even close...imagine the frustration when people don't understand you,atall...or even try understanding you...i'm happy I'm out of it...or atleast partially out of it...and thanks to my blog...the job's been easier...
but in the process i have bored people enough...i mean who cares about how screwed up you are...maybe some of them genuinely do...but after a while it just gets boring...monotonous...i get the feeling...its like you can't really relate to that person anymore...uncanny how i got transformed from the resident buffoon..to the tragedy queen...i agree i wanted to come out of the former's skin but I HAD NO INTENTION OF BECOMING THE LATTER..good heavens NO!!
it took me sometime to realise that i wasn't really liking what i was doing to myself...indulging oneself to sink in his own melancholy is not that great an idea...and so i resolved i won't blog until i came out of it...i did go to other's blogs..even left a comment or two here and there...but blog I didNOT...(smug smile)and now here i am..can't really say i am prancing with joy right now...but it feels better than it felt before....wheeeeee!(jesus christ...i can't even contrive happiness..gah!)
so there,to all those people who coaxed and cajoled me to stop posting such depressing posts,those who dubbed me an arunava clone(ugh!) and all those who mailed me to get blogging again..."here i am...this is me...there's nowhere else on earth i'd rather be..."
yeah baby:P