had this really weird dream last night...saw myself jumping off the english ledge...but the fall seemed to last for eternity...and i think i saw myself wearing some cheap red lacey stuff with lots of mirrorwork done on them...(i mean who wears such stuff,anyway?)...but the point is that i kept falling for a really long time...although i remember i took off from the first floor...so i had this stupid dream.period. but the point is that i really can't get it out of my head...its driving me insane...i mean,you tell me how long does it take for a person to fall???and whatever was i doing in that bizarre outfit,anyway??heck!shooo weird thoughts...just shooooooo!!!
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I'm turning into a resident groaner,brooder of sorts...sulked for a few days for not having made it to "midsummer night's dream"...bad mouthed myself for living such a non descript life...surely i deserve better...i could have made it to the play...i "could have" done a lot many things...i "could have"....but i did NOT... gah!!!
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and I'm starting to hate maa for making matters worse for me...i wish she would stop hitting me below the belt...sometimes i wonder whether she really knows me at all?or even bothers to find out...i wouldn't have really cared had she let me be instead of picking after me...
and the heat is just getting unbearable now...its somekind of an inter related chain of circumstances...if something has to go wrong,everything goes awry all at the same time!!!
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and suddenly I'm hungry for love...not the holding-hands-whispering-sweet-nothings-mush-mush....not that....something more meaningful than what I'm into right now...ineffeble...plain...simple...and yet so pure...so surreal...ethereal...
guess I'm asking for a little too much...that kind of thing doesn't even exist...gah!!
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Monday, May 01, 2006
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holidng hands...whispering mush mush love can be pure too...u know...and as for u being hungry for it....ahem...who was the person who gave me gyaan abt 'sen, u r okay as u r...u dont need someone'...
p.s. and onnesha...seriously u r turning into the resident 'arunava' nowadays...please...please..please..post something remotely happy...please...
baby chill. watch ice age 2, it's a total mood booster.
whats bothering you anyway? i know my birthday is before yours and all but that is really no reason to ditch your fashion sense..... !
le hug
@On- valo valo boi poro r valo gan gan sono---tahole onnyo jagot e thakte parbe...samassyar puro samadhan hoito hobe na,
--tumi valo thakbe.
r vebo na prem korlei valo thakbe,
'ekhane ekhon onek Haina-r bas.'
"chhole bale mitthhe bole
tthokie nite chaibe je- tomae"(sabai na).
--valo thakar chesta koro.......
yea, watch ice age 2, and falling dreams are supposed to be very common, supposed to signify insecurity. but i luuurrrve dreamin abt falling, it feels so-o eerily real, you know? i told myself mid-class-11, when i was really, really suicidal for stupid reasons like not being able to solve the ghastly math+phy sums and such like, that i'd jump off the tallest building and savour the falling, absurdly warped as it sounds.
oh and love-craving will go away once you have other things to occupy mindspace...dnt worry, or , wait, y dnt u do somethn abt it? that kinda thing does exist, I live with two ppl who're afflicted with that kinda thing for 24 yrs this 5th of May, so much, i feel like an intruder sometimes....
1stly,its a gr8 experience...falling....2nd when i asked my mom why is she picking on me so much these days ...she said it was her job to make my life miserable[a parent aftr all]
3rdly hungry 4 love[he he he]??wanna try ahoka the gr8?[winking and hope you get the clue......]
clueless...m your frnd...i don't have aclue as to what you are talking about..(innocent face)kindly elucidate...ahoka,the great???eh??!?
@sen,king,ann,diviani...DUH!was talking about something else...i did mention "not the holding hands types.."didn't i???idiots all of you...
@sen...m NOT arunava...you just see what i do if you in"slut" me like that one more time...
@anna...awwwww!why, fank you for the hug...
@the king.."haina toh moshai sunechhilam china-y pawa jay"!!!
@diviani...nice template...
@on--samay baro khrap,
ekhon AFRICA te-o haina pawa jay.....bujhleeee????????
ahemmm.....i meant a historical character...well never mind...have a melted perk instead......[by the way if u do get me give it a shot...he he he]
~~ Pls don't mind but instead of commenting on ur blog i shall ask u a question! ~~
But b4 that kno 1 thing for sure.. life is a long journey. ekbar pore geleo ba barabar pore geleo maatite pore thaka jay na otota sahoj noy pore pore maar khawa.. get ready and get goin..
In 1 of ur comments to king's blog u mentioned abut sum1 who thought and wrote like him. Can u inform us more about that mystery person as to who he is and what exactly he thinks.. shall be eagerly waiting...
Shomoyta bhalo naa holeo onek shomoy achhe;
Balance sheet-er baki tukui labh,
Puro hisheb melanor chesta michhe
Tai audit-ta mithye poritap..
Bhalo theko... ~~
@on- notun post kobe pabo?
sorcerer...is this some kind of a joke???now who is THIS??
man!if only ppl would stop playing games with me...i repeat...IT AIN'T FUNNY ANYMORE....
and,why do you think i will tell you who "the king" resembles?????
huh??
the king resembles king julius from madagascar, he's an adorable lemur with a gecko on his crown.
the sorceror happens to be the living dead philosopher from our dept!!!!
now who is that?living dead philosopher from our department...am i really that clueless about my dept?whateva hints you give,i never seem to get it...duh!
who's that...
aiii!sorcerer,tui ke??
apnaar matha ar amar mundu;
ami noiko bhojohori kundu,
bujhte chaile bujhe ne,
ami ekhono achhi chhilam je...
uff!ki bepake phele re baba...sojasapta katha ki obhidhan-e nei???khali oligoli...e goli she goli ghurie katha bola ...puro amar sohorer taxi walla gulor moton!!!:P
ummm...why do you wanna know??
well that was gross....and i don't think you'd fancy sensational...because seductive she definitley is not...she is the sweetest little thing i've ever known...and she continues to amaze me even today...knows all that could be possibly known about satyajit ray and can recite from sakti chattopadhyay with elan...so you still wanna hit on her...mebbe not..
tai naki.....
gal parar ekta odommo icche chepe dhorechhe...kintu na nijeke control korbo...tao ghontu...toke je ki bolbo bujhe paina....
freete naam bole debo???uh!oto soja!
robindrnather ek choritrer nam...go figure...
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